Developing Imperfection

Aloha!  Welcome to another day with the focus on Exercise.  If you are just joining, please check out these posts: 40 Days , Update , and WtR Day 1 . Most days, exercise is like this: Source: Motivation Required Other days, exercise feels like this: Source: Best Of... Either way, it's something that probably shouldn't be looked at as a chore or an inconvenient necessity. I am currently reading S arah Ban Breathnach's Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort of Joy.   Yesterday, it was about "creative movement."  She explained that exercise does not need to be regimented or exhaustive activitiy, i.e.  Crossfit, P90x, HardCorp, or Arnold  Schwarzenegger "Puhump Yu Up" (say it in his accent, you know you wanna ...).  Creative movement is whatever physical activity that imparts joy and a release from all of the crap you are enduring.  Another well-known coach and author,  Chalene Johnson, calls this the "soul" work...

Aloha, 40 days came and went.  Did I fall down in posting?  Why yes, yes I did. Did I continue to swap out anger and frustration for peace and progress?  Yes....and no. Was I successful in completely eliminating issues? No. Was I successful in being in a more positive head space than not?  Yes. Am I still having issues?  Who isn't? ;) Anger, anxiety, and frustration are still present, but not in the consistent manner.  It does happen in spurts which tells me two things, either I am suppressing my feelings or I am managing the outbursts with some effective tools. I just know this: Life is hard - it's friggin' hard.  Just when you think you have it figured out, it takes a hard left at Albuquerque (Looney Toon fans will love that reference). My self-sabotaging behavior is just as bad as a drug addiction or cutting, I choose to punish myself with food and emotional abuse from myself. I crave and want positive change. I've got a wonderful...