Disgruntled and at (dis) ease.
I've been experiencing a lot of dis-ease and disgruntlement this weekend. You see, I am disappointed and angry just in general. I am upset with friends that are looking at blessings and at gift horses in the mouth. I am upset with friends bragging about their accomplishments. I am upset that my husband would like to be "closer." Why? Because I am unhappy with my life...I feel like I am on the other side of the looking glass staring in. I don't feel like I am interacting with anyone, that I'm just the observer. When I found out I was going to have a child, I was excited. I felt that it was my opportunity to show a new life the "ins and outs" while seeing everyday objects from a new perspective. I had something to look forward to besides the droll work days and so-so weekends. And then, I miscarry. I lose the window of "newness." Instead, I get to bleed for two months straight, lose hair, have acne, spend lots of money of fem...