Update on 40 days
Aloha, 40 days came and went. Did I fall down in posting? Why yes, yes I did. Did I continue to swap out anger and frustration for peace and progress? Yes....and no. Was I successful in completely eliminating issues? No. Was I successful in being in a more positive head space than not? Yes. Am I still having issues? Who isn't? ;) Anger, anxiety, and frustration are still present, but not in the consistent manner. It does happen in spurts which tells me two things, either I am suppressing my feelings or I am managing the outbursts with some effective tools. I just know this: Life is hard - it's friggin' hard. Just when you think you have it figured out, it takes a hard left at Albuquerque (Looney Toon fans will love that reference). My self-sabotaging behavior is just as bad as a drug addiction or cutting, I choose to punish myself with food and emotional abuse from myself. I crave and want positive change. I've got a wonderful...